In between placing this ad I was still also active on my regular dating sites. On one in particular bigandbeautiful I had been talking with "P". He had smiled at me and I loved his profile so much that I couldn't resist emailing him. His profile was smart, witty and he was definitely good looking. Now I should at this point tell you I am no petite little angel, I am a Big and Beautiful Woman. My weight has been something of an issue all of my life, I go up I go down. Now at the age of 44 I have decided that as much as I would like to have more control of it, it is what it is and I'm not going to let it rule my life.