I had a few minutes after that so I went home and I sat down at the computer, 15 more email replies from ad were there. I got that feeling you get when you can't breathe and not in a good way, I was feeling overwhelmed. Thank goodness I had to go and pick up the kids, it helped take my mind off things. I was having other feelings that I'm not supposed to have about "Sir". The ones I new he was worried about me having, becoming to addicted he called it. At that moment I felt like he had really taken care of me and it made me feel good. Then I was worried how do I handle this, do I tell him and run the risk of him reacting badly, I was very confused. When he called I had just gotten home and I went into the bedroom to talk. I was happy to hear his voice, he asked me about my date and then we started talking about the other men I had dated. After he crossed that boundary we had set up I decided to let him know how I felt. I prefaced it with, can I tell you something and not have you freak out? I told him I felt very taken care of tonight and that I was thankful he had called and told me to leave. He handled in his usual calm way and said remember that I told you I would care for you not only physically but mentally as well. I had forgotten. He also said that he knew who he was and he knew who I was. I don't know what that means but it made me feel safe.