Aisha, thanks for the kind words. I find if I can write down exactly the way I feel at the time it really helps me get through things easier, a type of therapy lol.
I have been told to let it go, forget about it and we are in this together. He also said that if I don't let it go I will be punished. So here I am letting it go. Forgetting about it. Really I am.
Now I can get back to the task at hand, writing about cumming. Of course I would have to have someone to do that. I have been denied since Saturday and yesterday I have to admit I thought about that little toy I have in the cabinet (just for a moment). But I realized that what I really want is "T" to let me cum, hopefully soon - fingers crossed.