The night before I didn't sleep in the cuffs because "T" didn't stay over. Last night "T" came over and ended up staying, so the cuffs stayed on all night.
Yesterday William (The training of my lovely slut) spoke about how subs read D's blogs and how D's read sub blogs, I personally like a mix of both. But it also reminded me that I still (no matter how much I read) don't understand the mindset of a D. I just can't comprehend why they like being with someone like me who offers no resistance (I am not complaining). After being only in vanilla relationships for most of my life I guess I still can't believe that there are others like me, for a long time I thought I was unique (weird) with my desires, only to find out there are many like me.
My point is that I am always curious about the D's mind, so last night after "T" had placed the cuffs on my wrists I asked him. How does it make you feel when I wear the cuffs? He told me he uses them to remind me that I am his submissive, he likes to be able to grab me by the cuffs and jerk me around and if we had a weekend alone I would have to wear them the entire time. Plus there would probably be ankle cuffs. He also wants to place a rope at the top corner of the bed so that he can attach them. Obviously he has given this some thought. But I asked again how does it make you feel (I realize that's a difficult question for a man to answer) and he said good. Very simple, then he said and I know it makes you feel good too.
He was right, it does make me feel good. Last night was the first night in cuffs and I have to say it took a little getting used to. I didn't sleep as soundly as I usually do, but just like other things it will take a while to find my groove. When I would roll over I wasn't able to move my hands as I usually do, I couldn't grab on to "T", I couldn't hug my pillow. I also realized that you can't multi-task in them, its one thing at a time, I am used to my hands going in different directions and not even thinking about it. By the morning I figured out how to get comfortable and next time I will be better prepared.
I did enjoy the feeling of him placing them on me & taking them off, it turns me on, makes me feel secure and totally under his control. Whenever I moved the cuffs would remind me why I was wearing them, so they did exactly what "T" wanted, reminded me. Even after they came off I still thought about them, I have been restrained before but never has it had this effect on me, I am assuming that being collared would be the same.