I go to work, see my clients, chat with my co-workers. Go to lunch with a friend for tea and sandwiches. I go home and make dinner for my son and sometimes even dinner for the next night. Then I sit down and chat with a man from Orlando and we end up in a conversation about talking dirty in bed & the term slut in the bedroom lady on the streeet, or whatever it is. I talk to a girlfriend about a break up she's going through. I answer a couple of emails from guys I am talking with and I make a date with the lawyer from a couple of weeks ago. Read a couple of blogs, make some comments then I get ready to settle in for the night after throwing in some laundry.
Today I commented on a posting by FloridaDom'sCorner about marriage, sex and happiness. I have never been so confused about what is right and what is wrong within a relationship. I used to think it was so simple...1 man + 1 women and cheating was wrong. But there are so many ways of cheating - physically, emotionally, online, inperson, etc. and it doesn't even just have to be sex. Some many people are un-fullfilled within their relationships for whatever reason, I can't tell you how many married or involved men approach me on a weekly basis.
The point of this is that sometimes I feel like I lead a double life and the lines in my life are blurring. I'm not saying its bad or good, just a noticable. At the age of 44 my life perceptions are changing right before my eyes and the only place I get to speak about openly is here, because even though I test the waters delicately, I don't believe my freinds are really ready to listen with an open mind.