The new man in my life is "C", also known as Daddy or Master. I thought about what Nick had said about communication being key. As I was getting ready for work, I stared at my phone - do I text him or do I call. The worry was taken out of my hands, he called me. After having felt that connection with him I knew that if I was going to give it an honest try that I would have to tell him. I explained to him about the man I was seeing, how he had come to be in my life. How I had been falling apart after my breakup and that he had "rescued me" but that we both new it was temporary because of his situation. "C" asked me if I was willing to give up this man...I said yes. I told him that I never would have told you about him if I didn't feel a connection and wanted to see where it would lead. "C" told me that he appreciated my honesty and loyalty. I also told him about my blog and how I had chronicled my journey. I explained that it was there if he wanted to read it or not, so far he hasn't and that's ok because I never want to forget that this is mine, my outlet.
We spent another block of time together (6hrs) but it felt like no time had passed. I can't even describe everything we talked about, it was so much to process. I can tell you he expects me to go places I never thought I would. He asked me why I would go there now...I said that I wouldn't go there with someone who just wanted that one thing. But its different with you because you offer more of what I want and that one thing is just a small piece of the puzzle. He wants a long term relationship, a lover, family, vanilla and kinky, a baby girl, a collared slave, whore and a lady. He wants it all, I want it all...I want the whole package and I'm willing to work hard to be happy.
He's already seeped into my brain and I think about him all the time.
Goodbye - we had always said that when the time came that either one of us wanted to go, we would honor each other. We said goodbye today so that I can honestly and purely pursue this new relationship. We wished each other happiness and he told me to be careful, not to let my heart get hurt again. I thanked him for being there for me when I needed him and that I would always remember how he rescued me.