I know what I am looking for, always have. Maybe I have veered off course a couple of times but I have always had one objective in mind - I want a long term relationship with a D so that I can be my true submissive self. There is more to it than that but that has always been the very basic explanation. Most times when I meet someone I like, I jump in quickly and think about the future and it never works out. I am always disappointed and the blame is mine.